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at any moment more than half of my attention is given to the pain.
i read news stories as if the tragic figures should have been me.
i am more frequently unable to distinguish boredom from sadness.
lately is formerly with the crests and troughs more attenuated.
solace, or compulsion, in overbearing lattices of constraints.
i am waiting for my family to wake up. i want it to continue.
memory of this morning will become melancholic or nostalgic.
we taste olives properly now. we can nap better. sit alone.