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    In my beginning is my end. In succession
...
Leaving one still with the intolerable wrestle
With words and meanings. The poetry does not matter.
It was not (to start again) what one had expected.
What was to be the value of the long looked forward to,
...
The knowledge imposes a pattern, and falsifies,
For the pattern is new in every moment
And every moment is a new and shocking
Valuation of all we have been. We are only undeceived
...
Trying to use words, and every attempt
Is a wholy new start, and a different kind of failure
...
One is no longer disposed to say it. And so each venture
Is a new beginning, a raid on the inarticulate,
...
In my end is my beginning.

-- T.S. Eliot, from East Coker

wholy
a
    new

outgoing

all quite
quiet.
quiet for
for the moment
the moment, the guns
the guns' will
willfire
the guns
will fire.

fawn struggles against the fast flowing White

the outcome is
at this moment
uncertain, but
we congregated
in fists flock
to back levees
wind broken in
force multiply
by measureless
lesson in soil
our wits inter
Nicene deliver
saffron throat
of one one one
of after spoke



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bulletins

at any moment more than half of my attention is given to the pain.
i read news stories as if the tragic figures should have been me.
i am more frequently unable to distinguish boredom from sadness.
lately is formerly with the crests and troughs more attenuated.
solace, or compulsion, in overbearing lattices of constraints.
i am waiting for my family to wake up. i want it to continue.
memory of this morning will become melancholic or nostalgic.
we taste olives properly now. we can nap better. sit alone.

topological

a word & he was birded

behind the
needle legs, the fight for gristle

trickle of black
undertaker, the cat, it

it makes the eyes
attention of the seating, single spaced

snow & drop, fire &
hierarchy of wood

provisional: ends tied together, meet

   hive
his each moment out of water

wash up on thought
shore, surety

sky

sure always is a safe word if yr
planet held

intertidal interstitial

his each moment out of water
a clock gasping time, fish
grasping rock, store heat in the
mouth waking, beats on
the beach

view your documents

memory of direct
celluloid transfer,
a moment of emulsion
salt deep propagated
sound coral waveform
repeats its cortex
i will have been swimming cold alive

king making

devised the scale first or light
once whole begat a shatter of asteroids
could not know by definition no reach
for the concentric peels of degenerate
tree. or monotonic reach of wet wave
mark the beach. intermedial mud
allowing flopping as a qualified
swimming or walking, depending on
the moment of observation. His paths
eyes sear

greater than or equal to

the pacing reversing

spiraling out of

domine

my summer vacation

are you fucking listening to me? fucking listen to me. i am sitting here on my chair at my desk in my office before night and don't know what to do. do you have some kind of case study? some processeez i can make leverage of? are you--listen. jesus wept is issue one. well he knew the rock would roll back in a moment and death anyway is nothing to cry over and really man he was weeping for us ignorant sons of no no no i don't mean that. i mean it's the whole verse. jesus wept. seriously what is your point. listen. i am just fucking sitting here saying this to you. he wept. just then that was everything happening.

lullaby

bitter pain, like a wind,
don't tell me you don't have
sickness, in yr bones,
yr time is yr head pressed
in glittering tunnel, stitches,
this acute moment to consider
one more last finger tap, tap,
pull yrself together little bat
descending canopy of qualia, cloud,
tell me again about the passage of
white, weather

flying buttress

what particular   adhere
nce to admitted   access 
ibility we will   scrape
knuckle or nail   finger
edging pleasantly   by
event horizon   depression
eternity reckoned   of 
miniscule remnant   of
peace attenuating   the
means we held   producing
moment, poetry,   meaning
organ for adding   with
out viscerous   increased
attentiveness   determining
cluing, culling   cling

asymmetrical

          in the breath moment
       momentary wish of equipment
        equipped pulse whitening
     white sails disembarking the smaller then
           small mitochondrial differences at hand
      in hand to squat by the bedside
bedtable growing wish eyes that need water
   watering down flesh and glass

substrate

"Under the headline 'Notices to Mariners', [Conrad] asserted the futility of literary effort in contrast to the informational precision of reports of the comings and goings of ships, then commonly printed in newspapers." -- The Guardian, 12/1/2007

Eighty-eight homo sapien crossing
the square

at once. Fourteen
heads among them. That is
to say to the view

of the eighty-eighth to
enter, at the moment
she crosses the centroid of
the oblong plaza, fourteen other

souls arise in
constellation, the remainder sketched
only vaguely
and uniformly, the next stratum
up from cobblestone

quadrate

i could've summed up the quality of customer service as simple folds
in colorless sheets commingling into a more beautiful, say more aware
encoded signification of how i stand open-bodied to you, slightly in
tangent to the axis of our blunt pugilist noses as pointers as given
of prey, seeing as the cross--reference leads to premeditated moment
not for asympgoddamntotic stillness of lamplight guttering into dawn